Happy Holidays

First off,

i wanna wish everyone a Merry Christmas, i hope your day was as wonderful as it should be!
anyways today is boxing day, and soon enough it will be new years eve. Its amazing how fast this year has gone by! but nevertheless a great year it was, theres not much to say really but rest assured i will be back when i do have more to say! =)

Take care everybody and Merry Christmas once more.

lyrical lies

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday..

i thought id be prepared. but then you told me something and made me realize. im far from being ready.

ive lost my grip

help me.

im choking on life

*sigh*

Graduation Theme Song

Graduating Class Of 2007
John Mayer
"No Such Thing"

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat Take your life Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie that got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats grabbing credits and maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents they're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories tiny tragedies

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait 'til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

EMC

That's the dictionary's definition of a best friend. My defintion? Emily Mary Chin, that's right. This stupid gay dumbfuck, is my defintion of a best friend.

(trip cute)

Yup thats her. We havent known each other for very long, but we click and i guess thats what brought us close. Dont under estimate her; so shes only 14 [15 on october 29th, better wish her a happy birthday!!!] but shes a pretty amazing kid, shes smart, funny, good listener, amusing, intellectual, optimistic, kind, caring, shes always there for me when i need her, she knows jsut what to say to make you feel better, and to me i couldnt have asked for a better best friend. We talk 24/7 and suprisingly we're not sick of each other yet. [if you didnt know we go to different schools] shes the gayest shit i know, but i find amusement in her gay-ness. Even though this yr will be my last yr in kk, i want her to know that no matter where i am im always gonna be there for her and that distance isnt going to be an issue in our friendship.

In conclusion, EMC is thee coolest kid i know. mess with her, and ill just watch your sorry little ass get whooped! like so;



Oh and you're still coming to live with me in Aus stupid shit, to wrap up this entry imma paste the lyrics of a song..

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year but.

.I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you' Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast So far... things are goin' great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you' Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you' Cuz you're there for me too...

I LOVE YOU, STUPID SHIT!
~HOMIES FOR LIFE~

ps: dont get used to the show of love for you. its only a one time thing asshole!

this is a suitable valedictory

the dictionary defines high school as
high school
–noun
a school attended after elementary school or junior high school and usually consisting of grades 9 or 10 through 12.

but do you really think that a dictionary would be able to give people the true meaning of high school? would it be possible for a dictionary to show us the hardships and fufillments of what high school is? Throughout the years, we learn things that cant be found within the textbooks. I guess to really understand the meaning of highschool you're just gonna have to go through it yourself. Highschool is a journey to discovering who you really are, it unveils the person you are inside by throwing you curveballs.

Whats the first thing that comes to your mind when i say high school
ray says:
friends

::}{Chloe}{:: Baptized and Delivered [The River] says:
lockers, and classes...
fay : ( : it isnt fair, he was a good person says:
highschool musical!
JubJub says:
BITCHES
JubJub says:
america
Ian says:
friends
dusk and summer says:
um fun?
dusk and summer says:
excluding the work of course
sofie~ says:
musical
Kohinoor~~ says:
hope
Kohinoor~~ says:
its a scary place
Kohinoor~~ says:
so unsecure
alvin says:
pmr!spm!
T¡aЯa says:
friends
[tristan & sara] says:
high school is a big part of life, we learn our mistakes there, we meet our loves but most importantly an experience, mind blowing adventure and full of crappy drama as well but it makes us who we are now
nadz says:
i think of those american, australian skols..
nadz says:
lockers in the corriders
nadz says:
kids in coloured clothes
Shanna says:
gossip
Shanna says:
bitches
Shanna says:
sex

And to me? highschool means; Memories, regardless of the shit we're all going/gone through. This is one of lifes experiences; one we cant take for granted but yet so many of us do. Highschool is a place where we can go to learn and to socialize with friends and release ourselves during adolescence, create memories that will last a lifetime, do incredibly stupid acts out of pure bordem and look back at it to laugh and reminisce.

Yeah sure i know you're thinking "oh but theres college/university". But when you're enrolled in those institutes do you believe we'll be able to laugh our asses off cause the teacher has a kick me sign stuck to his blazer or pass notes about the cute transfer student from italy? Its the little things like this is that makes highschool, highschool, without the drama and the stereotypes highschool would be pretty dull... And like everything else, it will come to an end.

Graduation is defined as
1.an act of graduating; the state of being graduated.
2.the ceremony of conferring degrees or diplomas, as at a college or school.
3.arrangement in degrees, levels, or ranks.

i remember back in twothousandfour; we would always talk about the future and how graduation seemed light years away, come the yr twothousandseven graduation is within hands reach. Its frightening to know how fast time has past. I stand here today reflecting back on those endless days of immaturity and acts of stupidity, as anyone else would. i miss them So, there is approximately 68 days til graduation and yes i admit. im scared as hell!
Reason: leaving highschool means you cant hide yourself behind those highschool walls anymore, a step further towards adulthood and most of all Reponsibilities. I remember when i was about 7 i was the most anxious little shit and kept wishing that id grow up already. 10 yrs later and here i am today, wishing i had the abilities of Peter Pan to stay young forever and never have to grow up. Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up

We'd like to say its over We'd like just to forget All of the words we've never saidAnd all the actions we regret We'd like to send the message To each and every friendAnd thank them all for their support Wouldn't have made it without them We feel the time is coming And we're trying to pretendLike we're prepared, we're not prepared But if it's destined we are in Now listen very closely And try not to be scared Because were in this thing together And together we won't failI cant describe to you quite everything Just know that we are here for anything Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean thatYou have have there for every step of the way and I'm So happy to have found someone like you Cause without you I dont know what I would do When times are hard, when things go bad Regardless, I am here When your whole world is crumbling I promise to stay near We bring a balance into each other's lives We seek a challenge and hope not to collide I cant describe to you quite everything Just know that we are here for anything Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that You have have there for every step of the way and Im So happy to have found someone like you Cause without you I dont know what I would do Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life Now looking back I can't regret the things I've done Just realize how happy you've made me become Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that You have haven there for every step of the way and ImSo happy to have found someone like youCause without you I dont know what I would do Dear friend! Thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that You have haven there for every step of the way and Im So happy to have found someone like you Cause without you I dont know what I would do..

for emily

AHAHAHAHHAHA, in yo face emily.

pictures can speak a 1000 words

WOOOOOOOO!! I DIDNT GET CHOSEN FOR NATIONAL SERVICE!!
IN YO FACCCCCCCCCCCCCCE MOFO'S!

damn regret.

They say the past is what makes who you are today and well maybe yes it has contributed to bringing out your true character. my past isn’t something I’m proud of and occasionally tend to avoid the topic. its a sensitive and hurtful topic for me. but i can say I’ve learnt from it, and hopefully have become a better person after the experiences I’ve faced. But I still continue to hold my head in shame when being brought back to a certain point in my life where I was at my lowest (time to move on.)

I wouldn’t be jumping over the moon knowing that people are openly discussing your flaws and your past, when they themselves aren’t perfect. So tell me, why discuss someone’s hardships and use it as a debate topic for your own pleasure? Is it because those people have had their fair share of remorse and have chosen not to own up to it due to their OWN insecurities of being judged? Perhaps.

Ill say it loud and clear I’ve fucked up and its not something id like to brag about, but we were never perfect to begin with, so I apologize if I was little under the mark at the beginning.
Life itself has taught me many things whether it be with joys and sorrows, all of it becoming lessons of their own and teaching us values that we could only learn through experiences.I have learned throughout my life that through my mistakes and pursuits of false assumptions and not by my exposure to founts of wisdom and knowledgeto avoid situations in which you might make mistakes, just may be the biggest mistake of all.YOU CANT FIND THIS SHIT IN THE TEXT BOOKS!

“When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.” – Hugh White
Its late and im tired. Ill be updating more tomorrow.

Ps; nisa asked for her name to be in this post. So here you go nisa.pps; thanks for being the only one who understands what im saying. Ppps; tiaras gay

hiatus

yuppppppp, thats right. hiatus startin today til after spm? maybe?? maybe not?
but to those students studying for spm/pmr.

happy studying bitches! =P

NYAHAHAHAH

Rest In Peace Aunt V

so my aunt veronica, was diagnosed with cancer just last month. and unfournately when they found it, it was already to advanced to go for treatment, which sucked donkey balls...
it was only on weds that she had gone into a coma. and straight after school i balik kampung and went to the hospital to see her; it was horrible to see sucha beauitful lady suffer the way she did. I was there all evening and around 9:20, her heart beat started to decrease from a normal heat beart of 140 went down all the way to 40 within minutes. come 9:40, she had flatlined already.

REST IN PEACE AUNT V!!! I MISS AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

its been a pretty rough week, and i know i couldnt have made it through without my friends, so i wanna post a shoutout to my friends you know who you are (mr mustapha, tiara)

!Dipped Fortune Cookie says:
whatcha doind
Screaming Infidelities says:
hahaha yeahh..
Screaming Infidelities says:
umm
Screaming Infidelities says:
updating my blog
Screaming Infidelities says:
and listening to msuic
!Dipped Fortune Cookie says:
my name better be DAMN ASS IN IT

yes your name is in it. Even for someone who happens to be in a different state/country she hasnt let me down since, i know im able to trust her with my life cause thats just the type of person she is. shes an amazing friend and i love her for that. Nisa baby, your amazing!
thank you. seriously. i couldnt have done this without you. <333

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you...

learning to fall

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes, after that, you'd better know something. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important, it's what they do about it. I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be the last time you see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that sometimes I just need to be held. I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice. I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I've learned that my best friends and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance, same goes for true love. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it. I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological. I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I've learned that if you don't want to forget something, stick it in your underwear drawer. I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret, it could change your life forever. I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process. I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life. I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control. I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them the most. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you. I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can erase emotional pains. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe

those are just some lessons ive learnt along the way.

ehhhh ehhhhh kambang lah go sleep bah ehhhh ehhhh

Soooooooo. Nisa was in kk, awesome? i think so too! she was here for 4 days and it was good having her here. SERIOUSLY!!! Nisa, if your reading this you have got to come back soon k? we all miss you already! =(

Piccies:


Nisaaaaaa & Ian


they played the clapping game..

NYAHAHHAHAHA....

Nisaaa & White Boy

???

awwww, wat loving couple

sexy man.. HAHA.. right.

Tim "chatting up" Nisa

he shooots...

HE SCORESSSSSS! =P

tim thinks hes flying while raymond thinks hes a sexy model.

whose up for some live porn?

gay boys.

the gang.

its my drunken husband; Rich

the whiteboy



the angle was bad.. >_<"

me & ian in the car..

MY BABY =P

IAN. GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY CAR YOU BITCH.

Nisaaaa

Timmy being the gay boy he is.

nyahaha?

UP THE NOSE.

hahaha, she soooo stoned.

Poor Nisa, didnt wanna be seen with ian (its pretty obvious why)

BURGER KING OWNS!

tired of crying..

they say crying is the best emotional release. but does it have a limit? are puffy red eyes a sign telling you to stop? i myself am very tired of crying. ive become an emotional wreck within the last 24 hours and i find myself hopeless. ive been listening to delta goodrem to help me cope with the rush of emotions. but ill just end up crying again..

i hope my "emo-ness" doesnt last for too long.. i cant help but feel like an idiot when confessing my sob story to my friends.. but i can only do so much by thanking them for sticking around to listen to me.. =]

so hopefully after this post, im not gonna some emo wreck and decrease the amount of litres of water produced from my eyes..
and for the record.


i still HATE cancer.

Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue? Do you feel like your sinking? Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through? Well I know what you're thinking When you can't take it You can make it Sometime soon I know you'll see 'cause when your in you're darkest hour And all of the light just fades away When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray Well hang on and be strong Where taking each step one day at a time You can't loose your spirit Let live and let live forget and forgive It's all how you see it And just remember keep it together Don't you know you're never alone 'cause when you're in your darkest hour And all of the light just fades away When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray Well hang on, and be strong No you're not defeated And soon you'll be smiling once again Then you won't have to feel it Let it go with the wind Time passes us by And know that you're allowed to cry..

as tiara posted on her xanga.. there will always be moments in life that'll be worth going through the pain,moments worth living for.

oh a big shoutout to tiara, emily & nisa thank you guys.
tiara especially. i know you yourself got probs of your own. im always here to listen to yours too.. but from my heart. thanks. =] it means alot.