euphoria

its about 4am atm just got home from this club in sunway Euphoria by MOS (ministry of sound) and like i have to admit, MOS is just not my scene, i mean its awesome shit to listen to when you just wanna chill out or something but when your at this club and its blasting so freaking loud that you cant even hear yourself think, it just doesnt work for me anyways. i love how Euphoria has hot men everywhere; but the music and the dancefloor not so much.

i swear 60% of the people in there do not know how to dance, there were like shufflers, c-walkers, girls just humping air. it was HORRIBLE. i know not everyone has mad dancing skills like chris brown or ciara but still prevent us the eyesore. its entertaining as hell to watch; but after awhile you're just thinking "wtf are they doing?!" there was this one guy standing at the stairs of the dance floor, it seemed like he was riding a horse, kept jumping up and down and his hands are as if he slapping a horse.. why would you dance like that to MOS?! pretty sure, emily could dance better than any of those people just now.

anyways; my last day in malaysia today. how im going to miss it. just as im getting used to having everyone around, getting used to the lifestyle, getting used to them shitty drivers! im leaving it all behind for another year. time currently 4:17am, and im heading to bed.

oh nine.

a week into the new year, and i decide to update.
so i came, i saw and i conquered kk, was a pretty short trip; but what can i do i gots to work. so ive noticed alota people making a big deal out of this resolution thing. i myself have actually never done one, cause im the type to just go with the flow of life. but i mean, its a new year and theres always a first to everything; so here it goes, my first attempt at doing a resolution.

1. LOSE SOME GOD DAMN WEIGHT. (oh so very much needed of myself)
2. SAVE MONEY
3. stop being sucha emo cunt.


so come to think of it, i can only come up with 3. sure theres some others but they dont come to mind just yet. but these are the top 3 things imma focus on this year, hopefully ill actually work towards it. so 2008 was a good year, cant say it was a great one; hopefully 2009 will be slightly better, just wanna give a shoutout to those who have made the last year bearable; no names mentioned ya'll should know who you are.

so the kk trip was aigt, couldve been better but what can ya do? =) just as im getting used to having emily around (as much of a shit she is) im jetting off home in about 4 days; so thats a downer. it felt good to be home even if it was shortlived, the food, the atmosphere, the people, the simple life that everyone leads; no strings attached. i love it and i miss it. its one thing that i love about malaysia. currently in kl; spend some quality time with my brother even if it the trips just a week long; its the time spent together that counts. yeah not sure where all this stuff im saying is coming from; im just as surprised as you guys reading it are to find that i have alot to say..i guess my babblings gotta come to an end sooner or later.

hope 09' is ready for us fuckheads. <333

end of the road.

i cant take it any longer, thought that we were stronger.
all we do is linger slipping thru my fingers
i dont wanna try now, all thats left is goodbye to find a way that i can tell you.

gotta be realistic.

so i figured this holiday would be awesome, you know? hanging out with old friends, catching up and what not. but i gotta say its been beyond dissapointing. makes me wonder, why i bothered coming back. sure i was hyped up before, but now its just meh. im sure everyone else is having a ball, but for me its just not happening.
im sick of having those run in's with people you know and they ask for your number and ask to stay in contact or say we should hang out soon, its all bullshit. im sick of always getting fed bullshit, dont fucking ask or say anything if your not gonna bother. and im definately getting fucking tired of putting effort into asking for a hangout, fuck this shit. why should i be the one to call all of youse? fuck off. surely if they wanted to hang out they'd put the slightest effort into finding me youd think.

the countdown for kl begins = 13 days.

miss you both.

am sick and tired of having to put up with this shit.
sick and tired of always having to answer to you.
im 18 FUCKING years old, i do not need to call you and tell you where i am.
i do not need YOU to call me and see where i am.
i should be able to fucking enjoy the time when im out, and not be pesterd by you, i get enough of that when im home.

im anxiously anticipating the day im on my own and able to enjoy my life.
cause right now, ya'll just making it miserable.

*and you, i know what you're thinking when you read this and i dont give a shit if im being selfish.

SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ALL.

wish a truck would come and put me outta my fucking misery.