end of the road.

i cant take it any longer, thought that we were stronger.
all we do is linger slipping thru my fingers
i dont wanna try now, all thats left is goodbye to find a way that i can tell you.

gotta be realistic.

so i figured this holiday would be awesome, you know? hanging out with old friends, catching up and what not. but i gotta say its been beyond dissapointing. makes me wonder, why i bothered coming back. sure i was hyped up before, but now its just meh. im sure everyone else is having a ball, but for me its just not happening.
im sick of having those run in's with people you know and they ask for your number and ask to stay in contact or say we should hang out soon, its all bullshit. im sick of always getting fed bullshit, dont fucking ask or say anything if your not gonna bother. and im definately getting fucking tired of putting effort into asking for a hangout, fuck this shit. why should i be the one to call all of youse? fuck off. surely if they wanted to hang out they'd put the slightest effort into finding me youd think.

the countdown for kl begins = 13 days.

miss you both.

am sick and tired of having to put up with this shit.
sick and tired of always having to answer to you.
im 18 FUCKING years old, i do not need to call you and tell you where i am.
i do not need YOU to call me and see where i am.
i should be able to fucking enjoy the time when im out, and not be pesterd by you, i get enough of that when im home.

im anxiously anticipating the day im on my own and able to enjoy my life.
cause right now, ya'll just making it miserable.

*and you, i know what you're thinking when you read this and i dont give a shit if im being selfish.

SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ALL.

wish a truck would come and put me outta my fucking misery.

a life worth living.

these are the people that make my life worth living.

joe and tip <33

the maccas crew<333

frustrated.

your making me feel pretty useless.
you're dealing with something.
keyword being something, because pretty sure i have no clue whats going on with you and your life atm.
im your best friend, this is what we're here for, to help out and listen to your shit.
sure we all have times where we deal with shit on our own, but atleast we know what the other person is dealing with.
thats whats getting me frustrated. you know everything thats been going on with my life and yet all i know is one factor of your life and even that is just bits and pieces. do you know how guilty and useless that makes me feel?
its just so frustrating.


57 days
pretty sure ive lost excitement with the way things are going.