nothing else to say, eyy eyy.

im getting sick of missing you, because from what i can tell you probably dont feel the same or how would i know? you rarely tell me. only ever when you epiphanys or someshit do i realize what role i have in your life.
it drives me insane, to always be so emo about not having you around, or not being able to talk to you as much, specially lately cause i know whats going on with you...but you know what maybe i shouldnt be so emo about someone who doesnt seem to really care to make the effort that much anymore, yeah you've moved on with your life and like i did with mine. but there are still times when i still fucking need you. even if its just to talk for a bit wheter its about me or you. but when i tend to call i get no answer and i get tired of trying. i really do.

somebody asked me the other night who is my best friend in the whole wide world? and you know what i said? i said you. because i honestly think you are; but soon after saying that i told that person that i know i wouldnt be yours.

my semesters started, works becoming alot to handle; so i guess these distractions are just coming in the nick of time.

i have so much to tell you, i honestly do. but when will i get to?
im not even sure wheter you will read this, but hey thats the way it goes nowadays.

awesomest vid

the devil wears prada.

distance has finally taken its toll on me.

its time to get rid of this emotional baggage.

im over it.

urban dictionary

so my mate, sheng showed me this website which is pretty random. he asked me to look up the meaning of a word and he had a wholeeeeeeeeee story to go with it, so yeah anyways in the process of exploring this website decided to see what the urban dictionary makes of my friends names.. so i started off with fay; then i did emily. to which the search ended because i ended up in laughing fits at the meanings.

new love.

so its summer down here in good australia and its tennis season, since i got back its been tennis games broadcasted all across the tv sets and i cant help but watch, specially with players such as the william sisters, sharapova, dementieva, djokovic, fedderer, roddick and my one and ultimate favourite atm: Jo Wilfried Tsonga ( i have a sudden attraction for him, i think its cause his hair is shorter)

now, its probably the weather and the fact that ive been watching alota tennis that made me get out there and hit a couple balls around, i have to admit tennis is pretty awesome, cant really remember why i stopped playing in the first place; anyways for this year me and louise have made a list of what we wanna do this year and with that said sports was one of them, so we have been heading down to rec centres and playing sports and all our mates are getting in on it, its some awesome fun.

*droool*

ive been tagged.

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. If you could spend one Ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on? - cheap kedai runcit candy.
2. What is your most favourite thing to do? - listen to music and lose myself in thought or jump around and make a dick outta myself.. either one.
3. What kind of news do you read? - hate whatever comes out in the west australian or sunday times, so i prefer just watching the news.. CNN or BBC etc.
4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow? - i would do the most incredibly stupidest things ever.
5. Is there someone in your heart right now?- yeah but why would i wanna share it on my blog?
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?- Fuck no.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most? -
8. What do you feel like doing right now?- the tour de france.
9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?- Yes definitely.
10. List 5 things that u like in a guy/girl.- honesty, humor, consideration, understanding, optimism.
11. What are the requirements that you do not wish for from your other half?- them to be some hooker on the streets.
12. What do you think is your purpose in life?- to be the fat ass i was born to be.
13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?- ngehhhh
14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?- doughnuts or double beef and cheese burgers.
15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?- Happyyyy.
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change
17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?- this stupid shit back in kk anddddd my brother...
18. What is the one thing you love about yourself- my looks. AHHAHAHAHAH. i kid, ummm, my ability to make people laugh.
19. What is bothering you right now?- my indecisiveness to choose what song i wanna listen to next.
20. What is the first characteristic in a person that you look for when you meet for the first time? - ummm..sexual attraction.. AHHAHAHAH. no.. i dunno. fuck.
this is a tagged is full of weird questions. =P


anyways i dunno wheter anyone still bothers to read my blog.
so i will just tage whoever reads this, excluding alex and emily coz they done it already. =P

the great pretender.

im sick of always pretending like im fine.
im sick of always pretending like it doesnt bother me.
im sick of always pretending like it doesnt matter.

im not fine.
it does bother me.
and it fucking matters!