best days can be some of my worse.

ever been kicked in the gut?
cause i guess that's kinda i feel now, without the physical abuse. who knew a job you enjoy would do that to you, i honestly dont even know where to begin. i USED to love my job even it was just at maccas, loved it to a point where i just lost all sight of my purpose at work, it became more of a social thing and i realize that now. im just not sure where to start with what im doing wrong, what i need to improve on. no-one is fucking telling me. there's just a invisible list of expectations for me to achieve. that works out fine seeing as i can read invisibility so incredibly well.

im getting really tired of trying to prove myself to people. obviously being myself isnt the greatest thing to be in the workplace, but someone needs to fucking tell me what im doing wrong hey, cause at this point im just gonna stop caring and stop trying, the usual me would say "dont give up" but at this point its been dragged out too long, im not the best crew, im not the best manager, im not the best at anything at work but i do try and if they all fail to see that then i fail to believe in myself.