how do you let go of someone that you've grown to love and care for?
why do you refuse to believe that changes in life are actually possible?

even though changes are possible, i refuse to believe that there are changes in you, but why is it so hard for me to bite on this reality? because in reality, you never bothered to change. even though you hurt me numerous times i let it go because you were lost and alone. i kept taking hits for you, i did what i thought was best for you. i never had put myself first in situations you needed me. but since you left, ive discovered the brighther side of living life. ive relived a life without you, without drama and in all honesty, its been the greatest ive felt since we met. is that considered harsh?
perhaps. but i speak the truth.

i was someone who lived for others, now im living for myself. and it feels good.
this is something ive gotta do.
ive gotta let you go.

i feel like jumping in front of the bus

just so i dont have to listen to this shit.

both inside and out of work.

im so sick of everything.

AHHAHAHAHAHAH

i love you ellah.

the big black hole

ive managed to become the person i never imagined id become.
ive managed to lose my self in an attempt to try something new; but there really isnt an excuse for the person ive become. the choices ive made have resulted in me being the the current poistion; once again depressed and lonely and taking it out on the world which happens to include the people i love.

i dont know what to do anymore. i may not know now but i will eventually and well we'll see how that goes. in the mean time life goes on as does the rest of the world. so forgive me for ranting.

yeahhh boi

i got fucked up.

homies fo' life.

ive got the best boys in the world.
i love them all to bits.
homies fo' life.

Whenever you want me, I'll be there
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I got your back whenever you need me.

rewind.

scratch that last post.
lifes a bitch.
and all i wanna do is get away.